i'm the kind of person that sort've looks into signs. i don't really pass off odd coincidences, when most of the time they're just...coincindences. i sort've expected to try and run away this break from her. but it's like the more i try, i can't seem to pull away. i'm can't turn off the freakin brown sugar soundtrack. yeah i saw that movie with her. and the soundtrack has some ill songs on it. but am i listening to it just cause it reminds me of her? we were going through san francisco the other day and i saw a store off the freeway that had a big sign that said "ROBYN'S PAINTS". today, i dropped off my cousins at the airport, and as soon as i got back into my car, a song by maroon 5 (her FAVORITE band) came on. it struck me as odd because they aren't that big of a band, and they don't really seem like the kind of music that KWOD would play.
i hate to be the kind of person that just pines over something over and over and over. but that's what i'm doing to her. i expected this homecoming to get my mind off of her, and it has...when i'm doing something. but then comes this period of downtime where i'm not doing anything at all when my mind just wanders to her. i can't really wait for school to start because i think it would loosen me up a bit. i'll be meeting new people. developing new relationships. i'll have two classes with her, but i think that would be a good thing.
i played my song for her for a few people, and the first thing they asked was "did you play it for her?".
no.
it's been an eventful week...i won't really go into much detail but...
my cousins (norleen, kathy, and dodds) from washington came down for christmas. they're here until the 30th, so i've been kicking it with them all week. it's fun kickin it with the fam again. tonight me and dodds ate 10x10s at in and out. after that me and my other cousin judzon took them to the true love tonight. good times. i hella miss that place.
we also went to downtown plaza this morning to hit up the after christmas sales. went to ikon and saw....vanessa (GRROOOOWWWLLLL)
we went to reno the other day. me and dodds hit up the arcades and got our asses whooped at street fighter. my grandma was loving the gambling. i went snowboarding for the first time. fun times, cept i don't think it's my cup of tea. i got better at the end though.
we've also been watching hella movies. the back to the future trilogy, catch me if you can, can't hardly wait, van wilder, ladies' man, evening with kevin smith. me and norleen are gonna catch drumline before she goes back.
i've been hella behind on the christmas shopping. i haven't really started. hahahahahahahaha. muhahahahahaha! i got my friend a "key fob".
tommorow we're all going to san francisco. it's gonna suck though cause we're going to the parents. my dad wants to show my relatives ucsc. whatever...
it's gonna be weird going back to ucsc. i feel like i haven't done all i wanted to do during break (buy presents, see friends, record songs). part of me wants to stay here, but another part is glad i'm going back. i'm a little excited to go back and see ucsc cats again. i'm actually excited about going to class (maybe for a reason other than the class itself...well in two of those classes that is). i wanna meet new people in my new classes.
i'm also excited about people power. i downloaded the script for our spring performance, and there's a part that i wanna try out for.
The De Santos Family: San Diego
Mercedes De Santos: Age 22- misguided “crack hoe” that treats sex as a meaningless routine; jumps from guy to guy without having a meaningful relationship; fears true intimacy because she fears of getting close to someone; pushes away when feels emotionally attached because has trust issues; was sexually abused as a child by her uncle who now lives with her; abandoned by parents, left to live with grandmother who is the only person she respects; has to come to terms that she is in love with her best friend.
David (Best Friend): Age 22- has always been there for Mercedes; despite her flaws, can recognize that she has a good heart; has the ability to challenge her thoughts and call her out when she is wrong; overprotective of her because is scared to lose her; is in love with Mercedes
Lola (Grandmother): Age 64- has lived a full life with no regrets; passes on her wisdom to her granddaughter; husband died of natural causes; accepts her granddaughter’s rebellion as part of her growing process; doesn’t tell her what to do but merely offers her advice
Tito Ray (Uncle): Age 47- sexually molested Mercedes as a child and takes pride in the fact that he was never caught; now that she has developed into a mature woman, and live in the same house, craves to do it all over again; very deceptive.
the play is divided into 3 parts, each about a different family. i want to try out for the part of david. i feel that i can somewhat relate to david's situation. i've been in the situation before where i've been "the friend", and have developed feelings for the girl i'm good friends with. there's a part where david expresses his love for mercedes, that i think i can pull off (with a bit of practice and viewings of affleck's scene in chasing amy).
that's about it for now.
tommorow's gonna be weaksauce.
i had a dream about katy, this girl i used to look after at st. lawrence, the other night. i went back to st. lawrence and she was there. she told me how much she missed me and kept talking to me. when i used to look after her, she wasn't really talkative. well some days she was. but she was always hella hyper and was always smiling. except when the other little kids would mess with me. she'd get defensive and push em off. i wonder how she's doing now, now that she's in the first grade...
man i miss her. she was my favorite. hella helped me out when i was down senior year.
today was a long day.
dru picked me up and we went down to downtown plaza. dru kept complaining that he was hella cold, well...downtown plaza is an open-air mall...lol. we saw vanessa, the fly girl who manages ikon, at...ikon and she still remembered me even though i haven't been there since this summer. we then went to the comic store and the pee store (a used record store that smells like pee). i bought this funky looking michael jackson poster at the pee store. classic. we went back to ikon to meet up with bj, andra, stevie and randall. i ended up buying a hat and a shirt.
after downtown plaza, we tripped down to sac state to eat dinner (i had a carne asada burrito. those shits are better in santa cruz) and meet up with dru's gf, crystal (actually i dunno how she spells her name yet). we were waiting for her to get off work so we just chilled in the student union. we went to the computer lab and changed all the homepages to //va. YEAAAAAAAAH! so crystal finally came. she's a really cool kid. i'm trying to get her to write for //va. we just chilled for a while in the union. pshaaaaaa.... people have been asking me what is number one on that wishlist of mine. a ladyfriend would be HELLA nice.
so i got home and mark's been trying to call me all day. so i call him up and he says that there's a zebrahead show at the boardwalk. so i drive the 30 min to citrus heights to go to the show. it turns out that there was a mistake in the paper, and zebrahead played a couple weeks before. so me, mark and will end up watching the 1st show of turning point. they sounded like a mix between tool and incubus. it was their first show, and they brought all their families and friends. their ppls made up most of the crowd. after them was this girl lennon.
i really liked her stuff. well i liked her whole band in general. but i guess the show was highlighting her. cause it was headlined by "lennon". not "lennon's band".
after that, we drive to mike's house. we pick him up and we go out to this place off of prarie city road to go LAUNCH SOME POTATOES! over the summer we made this potato launcher. it failed horribly. but i guess the other guys kept on working on it, and got it to work. they went out last night, but i couldn't go. so we started launching potato after potato after potato. we shot at road signs. we would shoot it up in the air, and we wouldn't even hear it land. it was good times.
sometimes i read other people's blogs and feel intimidated at what they write. to be honest, i really don't like other people's blogs. yet i read them, i look at them. i envy their layout/webdesign skill. i envy their writing talent. what do i have to offer in this vast world of cyberspace? i mean, just having a blog is a call for attention. i could have a personal journal, where i can just let out whatever i want. but instead, i have this blog. i know people read it. the counter tells me so. but why? maybe this blog is for my friends. just to let them know wassup. and it's cool if they read it. i'm not trying to hide it. but other than the link in my profile, i'm not really advertising it. i mean it's not like this is //va. i'm not out there pimping the hell out of it. okay i guess this was one of those things where i just ramble and tagent myself to nowhere.
okay so no clubbing tonight. mathew and samantha came here to hang out so me and steph stayed with the cousins. we took all of them to go see "the hot chick". it was okayyyyyyyyyyy....
so i've been here in florida for a few days now. haven't really done much, just hung out with the little cousins. i saw my cousin stephanie today though, that was cool. out of all the cousins on my mom's side, she's the one that i'm least close with. pretty much cause she's always off doing her thing. she's been in london and new york going to school and working, so i haven't really gotten close to her like some of my other cousins. so it was cool catching up with her and whatnot tonight. she's gonna take me out to a show tommorow, which should be cool. tonight, we were supposed to go watch a movie with my little cousins vincent and xavy, but all of the (pg-13 and under...cause the vince and xavy are youngins) movies were sold out. so we ended up buying zoolander at blockbuster and watched it here. tommorow i get to see my other little cousins, matthew and samantha, then go out with stephanie tommorow night.
i was talking with my grandma the other day, and found out that my grandfather was a cannery worker in seattle and worked in the fields with other filipino laborers in stockton. it was so weird because this stuff was exactly what we were learning about in asian studies. it's dope learning about something that i can relate to. my lolo didn't actually work in the fields though. most of the filipino farm laborers couldn't read or write, so my lolo would write letters home for them. pretty smart if ya ask me.
jon's christmas wish list
an evening with kevin smith dvd
"an askew view"-by john kenneth muir
weezer's blue album
common's "like water for chocolate" album
a special ladyfriend
some cool headgear
some nice headphones
goonies dvd
zelda for game boy advanced
a retro kings hat
bazooka bubble gum
chocolate covered raisins!
guitar picks
$$$
a ninja turtle action figure
b-boyz action figure
transformers the movie
2 turntables and a microphone
my two front teeth
a mix cd of any genre with all of the songs labeled
something that would make my friends go "OH SHIT!"
fill in the blank: ______________
i'm kinda split between doing this blog and //va. sometimes i get really lazy to do double duty. i've also been lagging a bit because of finals, which wasn't too bad.
highlights from the past week
history of jazz final
asian studies final
watched 8 mile and had jamba juice with korin *YAY*
hung out with merril kids
made a gingerbread house
insomnia-ed with monica...till 5
hung out with stevenson kids
funked up my hair..."what happened to you?"
basketball basketball basketball
so today i got here in sacto at 7:00. everyone in the house was asleep so i went to bed. when i woke up i cleaned the garage with mom and dave. afterward, me and dave went to rancho murieta to see our cousin reeva, who just got back from australia with her study abroad thing. we kicked it there for a bit, but reeva decided that she was gonna bus to LA to see her boyfriend that night. after that, me and dave went to joe's style shop to peep dj d-styles. that was a dope show. saw some kids from high school there. after that, we ate at willies. man i miss willie's...
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Excerpt from a BBC intvw with Roald Dahl, 1988
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Roald Dahl: I think probably kindness is my number one attribute in a
human being. I'll put it before any of the things like courage or
bravery or generosity or anything else.
Interviewer: Or brains even?
Roald Dahl: Oh gosh, yes, brains is one of the least. You can be a
lovely person without brains, absolutely lovely. Kindness -- that
simple word. To be kind -- it covers everything to my mind.
If you're kind that's it.